Gubben u have a great tallent us does my daughter with drawing , i wish i could put the image in my mind on paper , that is really very good , mate when i feel blue i filng pink floyd or some country does the trick to soothe my soul , thats why im gonna persist with guitar my mate plays and when i watch him play i can see the way by producing the music in line with your emotion is more a stress relief than listening to it.
I listen to ACDC if frustrated or peed off , or when i work out .
But to be able to play some floyd or ACDC would be a great outlet , not comming as easy as i would like , been mucking around with the thunderstuck into im getting faster and learning just how fast u have to lift your fingers of the srings etc as i wasnt in the start ,
and mates gave me some stuff to work on like A Planatonic , then onto resolving notes etc.
Difficult atm but allways wanted to know how to play ang going to persist for at least a yr , got a guitar and amp for free , i,ll get there , nearly got thunderstuck intro sorted just a bit slow , but its all about finger position and placement that comming to me .
Got a mate in the excact situation i was in , he confided in me when i moved out that he had been sleeping in a seperate bedroom for 4 odd yrs , doesnt love his misses , just shows how much we love our kids , i said to him every man has a line in the sand , you can only take so much , like i told my ex , i have along fuse but if i walk i wont come back , i warned her , afterwards she said she didnt think me serious . She now does lol .
The hardest thing ive done in my life even tho i was miserable was to walk out that door and leave my kids there , woman have it all there way , automatically they get primary care no matter how useless some are.
For instance today im taking both boys for a pre-school healthy start inititive health check , which centrelink pays her to do as i said on the previous post i do it all , pay for parking , petrol loss of wages etc while she does jack sh*T , dont get me wrong i dont mind or care im there dad and i think its 50/50 she is quite content with sitting on her ass letting me do it all while she collects the money.
To the point they wernt getting the required health/dental care and i didnt know where they were with anything because i cant talk to her because she just assumes im after her payment . which is so imature and a ludicrous assumption .
BUT im ready for court i have every text msg , email documented for the last two yrs i have all there medical /dental records so that when it gets to court , the judge is going to rip her a new one , she says shes going to have 20 ppl to back her up , and my family has said they,ll come to back me to which i declined there offer it will be just me and my lawer and the facts i dont need numbers in seats and will tell the judge that .
She stands to lose $200 per month which in her case will probably send her bankrupt lose her house and she,ll have no option other than move into her mums and lose everything , to which she calls me a C*#T of a man , allthough she didnt blink an eye when i got so bad i nearly ended my life or the fact i had to leave and live at my mothers for two years which was muder , painfull and depressing .
But Karma shes about to get , when i worked at Qantas i handed over my whole pay bar $50 i told her i earned $700 per week in fact it was $750 , when i asked where the money went , she,s go where do u think the money go's on Fu#*king bills , after repeated attempts to get or to spell out and itemize our incomming outgoing money , and was given excuses everytime , i found the proof that she left around one time and forgot to hide .
3 Credit cards maxed out and another letter $2000 behind in Rent . Bitch
Still to this dont know what she did with it , she was a compulsive spender and horder , we'd have things in the house purchased and still sitting unopened in the boxes 6 mnths later .
Anyway the only reason im mentioning this is that guys get a bad wrap and many ppl are going through this excact same situation now , sometimes all isnt as it seems if you feel somethings wrong trust your gut , it doesnt lie .
The only regret i have is not doing it earlier , but im very strong now very perceptive and dont judge a book by its cover .
I have never and will never hit a woman and she knew it so for her it was open season , she pushed me many times , Oneday she called my family a bunch of inbreds as she was saying it lol my ass lifted of the couch i walked over put my finger on the end of her nose and said if you were a guy i,d lay u out , but be carefull what u say because not all guys have the patience and tollerence of me and oneday you,ll say the wrong thing to the wrong person .
Some ppl hey ?
I dont mind sharing some personal stuff im good now , and thrive on a challenge .
Respect u guys and appreciate your ear and hopefully impart some wisdom through experience that if your not happy .
If you not happy make it happen
Yer Sifz we do all have a cross to bear , im good , not after sympathy , just felt the need to let ppl know that the jesus thread , allthough frustrated me when i knew the Ceasers Messiah video and atwills assumptions beforehand , and no i dont blame gubben , alot of ppl are unsure and confused about things , my apology was for my anger with inhouse stuff comming through on the post , we all have our idea's on how to fix the planet mankind is just to greedy .
Thats why i mentioned Peter Garret i think he did more for the planet through midnight oil by getting ppl to rally up there emotions on saving the planet than he ever did in politics .
(fuck that!)
